Manigong Bagong Edad

'Sa dami na ng kandila buong taon para nang alayan ng kandila sa simbahan'

Birthday.

Ito ang nag-iisang araw sa kalendaryo na puwede mong akuin na sa iyo. Araw mo. Ito yung araw na una mong nasilayan ang liwanag sa mundong ibabaw. Ito yung araw na pinagmumura ng nanay mo ang tatay mo sa hospital dahil sa hirap mong iere dahil bata ka palang ay malaki na ang ulo mo.

Araw ng kapanganakan, birthday, natal day, kaarawan. I will celebrate mine this Saturday 18th of August kaya ko naisipang sumulat tungkol dito. Well, yearly ako gumagawa ng post about my born day to thank friends and families for their special greetings which I really appreciate.

Being in 36 years of age is one hell of a ride. Siguro ito na nga yung pinaka-memorable. It's a death thrill. Ang dami kong first time experience, a not so good experience but I'm still blessed because God allowed me to still live. From here allow me to tell you a story. It's 2016 when I was diagnosed that I have a heart condition and sa una ang nararamdaman ko talaga is ang hirap tanggapin and I begin to question myself "hala bakit ako, ba't ako pa?", it's hard to accept kasi I am not a smoker nor a liquor drinker and I've been hated by some of my friends nga siguro kasi hindi talaga ako sumasama kung magyayaya sila ng happy drinking hour. The fact is, even if I gain 73 kilos, I am more of an athletic guy. I use to spend my time strolling with my bicycle while feeding strays at dawn every rest days of my work at  a BPO company. I even use to play basketball every morning.

Having a heart condition makes your movement limited it's because the blood that use to circulate the body was unable to supply the blood flow from the heart that makes you get easily tired and have a shortness in breathing. The doctors said that I have a clog in three arteries, a plaque  that blocks the blood flow. The one artery had an 80%  clogged and they recommend me to have an open heart surgery (bypass surgery) hopefully by the end of the year.

The dawn of May 19, 2018 akala ko biyaheng langit/impiyerno na ako.  My shift is 4pm to 1am that time. When I got home I decided to have a little snack before I go to sleep. I'm watching a  basketball game in YouTube (pampaantok), suddenly I felt sharp pains on my chest. I've been battling the pain for 2 hours hoping that I can still revive it and I don't want to wake up anyone from the house. The situation comes when I really having a hard time to breathe and at that moment I decided to get some help. My mother rush outside and look for a nearest trike.  I went outside and luckily with a strong determination that I can get by to the hospital I was able to walk despite of the difficulty of breathing. I was taken to  MCI hospital and admitted for one week.  After 3 days in the hospital I was scared kasi nakaramdam ako ulet and there was a sharp sharp pain in the middle of my chest. My body curls in the agony of pain and my sister and niece don't know what to do. They called a nurse but the nurse told them that they need to call my doctor over the phone to instruct what to do. Luckily, the pain slowly go away after 5 to 8 minutes of battling.  At that very night my doctor came, visited me and said that I must go through "Andiogram" operation. Morning comes and I was taken out from MCI, and taena first time ko nga na ma-admit sa hospital at pinakaunang beses din ako makasakay sa ambulansiya to transfer naman to Perpetual Help Hospital in Las Pinas kung saan duon gagawin yung operation. Kahit nakahiga ako at dinadala sa operation room sabi ko "shet, ang gaganda naman ng nurse dito." I was taken to a side room. My doctor's team prepared me for the operation. A device same like from the electro cardio gram has been connected to my chest and there was also an automatic blood pressure monitor strap in my shoulder. Maya-maya sabi nung gay na nurse (not judging, but I think he is) I have to remove my underwear. Fuck! sabi ko why, lol! Eh ilang araw na ko walang goli at tsaka naman kapag hinubad ko talaga yun tangina manamis names! Ganun pala yun may small catheter na ipapasok sa skin it's either in the singit or sa wrist. Doc decided sa singit, haha so they need to shave the jungle within. So, ayun pumikit na lang ako sa kahihiyan and let them finish what they're doing. 

Despite of my condition, siyempre wag nating tatangalin sa kukote natin na maikli lang ang buhay and our goal pa rin is to be happy. With the support of my family and friends nanduon yung spiritual cure and you feel that you are not neglected.  I never question God "why".  I believe that  God gives his toughest battles to His strongest soldiers. ... but He supplies His strength and power to us to help us overcome those trials."  Sabi nga ng Neo Colours sa isang awitin "Tuloy pa rin ang awit ng buhay ko". Naks!

Within Temptation - "Memories"

Tatlong bagay lang naman ang pwede mong gawin kapag sumapit ang iyong kaarawan. Magdiwang, magmukmok o dedmahin ito.

Sa ayaw man at sa gusto, ang ating kaarawan ay isang mabisang paalala sa mga kapalpakan o achievements natin sa buhay. Nakakalungkot nga namang isipin na isang taon na naman ang madaragdag sa edad na ilalagay mo sa iyong resume pero wala ka namang maidagdag sa listahan ng mga accomplishments mo. Madadagdagan na naman ang edad mo pero ang timbang mo di pa rin nababawasan at ang pangarap mong healthy at sexy figure ay produkto pa rin ng iyong ambisyosang imahinasyon.

Ngunit ano nga ba ang dapat ipagdiwang? Naalala lang ng mga tao ang birthday mo dahil sa libreng notification ni Facebook. Sinubukan mo na ring minsan na magdeactivate ng Facebook bago ang iyong birthday upang tignan kung sino  talaga ang mga totoo mong kaibigan na makakaalala ng kaarawan mo, pero epic fail din ang social experiment mo kasi si Jobstreet lang at ang paborito mong porn site ang bumati sayo sa birthday mo. Na-miss mo tuloy na mag-like at magcomment sa mga birthday greetings na dati ay bumabaha sa wall mo sa tuwing sumasapit ang iyong araw ng kapanganakan.

Sa kabaligtaran, kung may magagandang nangyayari sa buhay mo, you have all the reasons to celebrate. Datapuwat, subalit para sa iba dedma lang. Ang araw na ito ay lilipas din. Isa lang itong ordinaryong araw na may 24 oras, 1,440 minuto at 18,600 segundo.  Hindi nga naman hihinto ang pag-inog ng mundo dahil birthday mo. Hindi maiibsan ang traffic at hindi malulutas ang mga problema ng lipunan dahil birthday mo. Huwag ka ring mag-ambisyon na dahil birthday mo ay magkaka-zero crime rate sa bansa.

At the end of the day, kaarawan mo ito. You can spend it any way you want it. Pero para sa akin, ang kaarawan ay isang araw na dapat ipagpasalamat. Hindi man lahat ng nangyayari sa buhay natin ay naaayon sa ating mga plano, ang kaarawan natin ay isang paalala na biniyayaan tayo ng oras upang maisakatuparan ang mgagusto nating gawin sa buhay at makasama ang mga taong mahal natin at mahalaga sa atin. Isang taon na naman ang lumipas ngunit eto nakatayo pa rin tayo at hindi sumusuko sa mga hamong dumarating sa ating buhay.

Wala ka mang natanggap na regalo mula sa mga mahal mo sa buhay, wag mong balewalain ang pinakamalaking regalo na natanggap mo. Buhay ka pa at iyon ang mahalaga.

Maraming salamat po Lord sa sapat na handa. Wala ring programa para ipagdiwang ang birthday ko. Ganon pa man, kahit siguro sa pinakasimpleng dahilan ay naging makabuluhan ang araw na ito para sa akin. Naging masaya ang aking kaarawan dahil sa mga bumati sa akin sa pamamagitan ng text, tawag, twitter at siyempre sa Facebook.   At sa mga nakalimot kahit matagal ko na silang kaibigan at kakilala  eh siyempre I love you  pa din.

At muli kagaya ng mga nakaraang blog post ko sa tuwing sasapit ang aking kaarawan. Ako'y galak at minarapat na ipangalandakan lahat ng pangalan ng mga bumati sa akin. Hahaha! At may celebrity pa at mga taong kilala sa gaming at modeling. Naks!

Maraming maraming salamat po sa inyo:

Nanay ko siyempre

Jessica - utol ko at nagsponsor ng cake

Titas of Manila

Pinsans of Paranaque

Si Coco (aso ko)

14 cats (too many names to mention)

Ate Ladee Villareal

Princess Danna

Yassi Jrn 

Joy Nino Sarmiento

Vaughn Mendoza

Joann Pamute

TL Karen Tarriela

TL Phi Castillo

Donna Elzee Vintola

Lei Mocorro

Rhonz Alarcon

Kathleen Siahay

Gina Garcia

TL Kristine Joie

Jerome Ocampo

Si Earn

Von Ortega

Greg Del Rosario

Prof Harold Aquino

Sir Jason Madamba (adviser/teacher ko sa Physics, high school)

Apple Figueroa

Rain Ambre

Cathleen De Ere

Nhel Muniz-Buraga

Jhoan Santarin

Zira Pagar - insan

Ella Raymond Cajife

April Crystal Sapphire Martinez

Teacher Abegail Manalastas

Belle Osorio

Jacquelyn Gozum

Alyssa Kristie Roperez

Nica De Castro

Teacher Jorene Abagon

Melody Payopay 

Zhen Ortega

Joshua Calianga

Angelica Gabriel

Refeoj Alc

Joy Ochoco

Kyle Cristobal

Noreen Rodriguez

Jobelle Ongonion

Ace Gara

Jeffrey Tejuco (NSD diehard)

TL Jaq Clement

Layca Gatmaitan

Dev Gerson Palacio (aka Dalisay)

Amhille Mhille

Celine Cavero Ohoy (mis ko mga tsika mo)

Tonee Amora Robles

 Gerald Sasis

Francis Saria (conyo name "Inyaki")

Whena Caimol

Kathrina Celynne

Sir/Pastor Alexander Natcher

Brian Semilla

Marielle Dela Cruz - Atienza

Warrock Elizalde (another NSD die hard)

Sir Joseph Verdida

Jherlene Ramos

Elvin Manuel

Maria Camille Go (edit queen)

Karla Patrisha Quebec 

Roi Marvin

Dih Ambagan

Cyr Al Sayo

Jelay Lingo

Arjay Legaspi

Abbytot Remulla

Yuri Bells

Lilah Skirts

Jayson Baculod

Paul Gabriel Ong

Mark Russell Villaluz

Angel Samorin

Paula Maricris Anacay

John Dove Reyes

June Alvarez

Jhec Villanueva

Novilyn Dizon

Eric Santia

Sherie Gabrino

Sir Marvin Carandang

Ate Sabrina Cuenca

Ivan Ilano

Alyssa De Guzman

Kuya Jay Corral

Duane Escoton

John Carlo Miranda

Jacqueline Gayoso

Rufa Mae Quinto : )

Emily Bloom (adult sexy model)

GRPT/gllty ( Pro Gamer for @teamgrapht / Pro Street Fighter player / Twitch TV partner